Well, I’m not sure I liked that approach, but I agreed I could do nothing hands-on about it until I got there and sized up the situation. As soon as the car stopped I was running to the pen where she was segregated.
HOW BAD THINGS CAN LOOK–AND BE
You know how the mind works. How quickly it will jump in and start analysing whatever is going on. And it’s not all a bad thing, because if your mind can actually work in circumstances such as these instead of going into panic mode, you can size things up and see what the options are in a matter of milliseconds.
And then there was the other break in the bone itself of her upper leg. It was totally broken all the way around. I felt it, very gingerly. It could be shifted in any direction. The only thing holding the bone together was the skin, meat and tendons surrounding it. At the place of the break, it was not the biggest part of the leg, so I didn’t have to feel through much to feel the break. Picture a chicken drumstick. I know, this is not the way I like to think about my living chickens. But think of the drumstick of a chicken leg, the break was almost at the middle along the length of the bone, not the part with all the meat.
So immediately I was flooded with despair. I considered it must be also very painful. No hope of recovery. There she was, sitting down. When she stood for some water and food, she balanced on the good leg, the other leg dragging behind her like a dead branch. Heartbreaking. I thought of the axe. The knife. The quickest way to end her misery. Starting to steel myself to have to do it.
THE LORD HAS SOMETHING TO SAY
Then, out of the stream of thoughts comes this other suggestion. A kind of statement of fact. “You don’t have to do that, you know.”
When this happens, it’s not like a voice literally heard. It’s hard to explain. But here I go trying to explain it again. It’s like a thought from me, but I know it isn’t. Because it is not something I could have thought on my own. It’s not an option I believed possible. Not long ago, I would not have been able to receive this idea, as I had no experience with divine healing. But since I started to investigate what the Lord really did say about healing, and to believe, well, it’s all a whole new ball game.
So, how can I explain this? My “inner ears” kind of “perked up.” And I am thinking–my mind, my brain–is thinking “huh? what? what’s this? what do you mean?” Then I knew it was not of me, it was the Lord speaking to me through my spirit, and there is this split second delay as my mind is able to grasp the meaning of what is being “said.”
So the Lord, through the Holy Spirit, through my spirit, then through my mind, “said” the following. And it’s like this whole block of knowledge. It’s not word by word. Again, I am trying to explain it. When I spell it out in words, it’s more or less like translating. Since I have studied a couple of languages, and am fluent in one of those, I know how it is to have to translate word for word. Then there is the time, in the learning of a language when you understand in blocks, even if you don’t know every word until you analyse it. Maybe you know what I mean already. It has taken a while for me to even be able to articulate to myself what it is like. Here is what I heard:
You don’t have to kill Evelyn. She can be healed from this. You can believe and she can be totally restored to normal, with no ill effects. She can become one of your productive flock again, and be the mother of many more little chicks. What you have to do is put some kind of splint on the upper leg. And keep her in this box pen so she doesn’t move around too much for now. And pray with belief, as you’ve been learning to do. You have seen what the Lord wants to do, and will do, if we allow. You know what Jesus paid for with his death. It applies even to this. You can step out on faith and see her healed.
FAITH TO THE TEST
Then I went to the pharmacy with my friend, and we looked for anything that could be used as a splint. He suggested a finger splint, so we got one of those and then cut the end off (the part which goes over the finger tip of the person) so there were two separate pieces to surround the leg, and velcro ties to wrap around.
It was not easy getting it on her. I was very happy to have someone there to hold her while I did it. Not that she was uncooperative, it’s just that the “drumstick” at that part of the leg is very sloped, and the feathers are slippery. Anyway, I did get it on there, and though it took a few adjustments, I could see it was holding.
As for the lower joint which was busted off, I didn’t do anything. There was nothing I could do for it but let it hang. I couldn’t put it “in place” as there was nothing left inside to hold anything “in place.” Besides, the Lord didn’t give me any instruction other than what I did, and I felt not to do anything with that part of the injury; I did what the Holy Spirit had relayed to me, nothing more.
I praised the Lord, and thanked Him for the healing which was given, though I didn’t see the evidence in her yet, I knew it was going to manifest in her physical form. I had the picture inside me of what the Lord showed would be the result. It was so striking, so real to me, so undeniable, that, incredibly, I was at peace. I knew it was the case that she was healed in the spiritual dimension; no evidence in the natural world was going to come against that now. In fact, I went on about my day and barely gave it a second thought, I was just grateful and happy. Not only was Evelyn being restored to full health, and the sickening event turned around, I was also seeing the work of the Lord firsthand in my life. That’s how I felt. I was able to put aside any doubt and continue on.
Whenever a doubt tried to creep into my mind, I put it aside. I remembered what the Lord had shown me: a picture of Evelyn, on her own two feet, walking, and doing what chickens do. Healed, and for the glory of the Lord.
Well, you may be thinking, “it’s only a chicken! who cares?” Well, you must not have chickens, or at least any chickens who mean something to you.
He made all there is, for his PLEASURE (Psalms 104:31). If you believe God made all there is, why would you think He is indifferent? Jesus said that not one sparrow falls to the ground without the Father’s knowing it.
Yes, we go back to this big question: the problem of pain in the world. Where is God when horrible things happen, and all that. I know. Those are the questions of existence, which have kept the philosophers busy for millennia. I can’t say I have all the answers. But this is what Jesus said about the worth of life:
Are you worth more than a sparrow?
Most people would say yes. I would say yes, of course this is true.
But thank the Lord I didn’t even have to grapple with that. Because look what happened next!
WHAT HAPPENED WITH EVELYN
I know these thoughts are not actually mine. I know there is another spiritual kingdom besides the good side. Yes, I’m talking about evil spiritual beings. And they operate by broadcasting thoughts such as these. Sowing seeds of discord within.
However, now I more or less expect this to happen. So I was prepared. When those thoughts came I pushed them aside. I knew they would come, and try to sabotage the good seeds which were planted. The seeds of faith, and the tender seedlings. So I turned off that switch. I said “No. I see what this is; this is not what I believe, and I reject it.”
This is actively resisting. Some, influenced by Eastern religions, and I was one of those in the past, would say it’s foolish to resist. It only strengthens what is being resisted. I reject that concept at this point. I just do not see that it is true in all cases. Yes, in some instances when you fight something, it builds power to overcome you. But there is a time to resist. Not everything is about resisting or complying, but some things are. Lack of ability to discern situations will lead to blanket solutions, such as “don’t resist.”
If you are following the Lord, you know you must resist the devil. In the temptation in the wilderness, Jesus spoke to the devil, and used truth to combat his ploys. The devil was using words and thoughts, concepts, to try and trick Jesus into doing what was just plain wrong and sin–to worship him, and to go against what God had told him.
That’s the kind of combat I’m talking about. To not give in to those thoughts of defeat, suggestions to do the wrong thing–and there is a right thing and a wrong thing–though it may be subtle. It’s not always the choice between murder or non-violence for example! That is such a black and white way to see it. That is just living by LAW, and not by GRACE. I don’t care if you are a Buddhist or a Baptist, living under law exists and it’s not the way that Jesus taught.
So I resisted those thoughts. I said “I refuse you. Leave me now, in the name of Jesus.” I spoke my faith–out loud–I spoke what I actually believe and why, and thought about what the Lord has done. I reflected on the vision he had given me inside myself–Evelyn whole and healthy. A personal vision, and it was very clear. I was not going to trash that gift. So I continued on. I praised God and thanked Him for the gifts, including healing, provided by the sacrifice of Jesus Christ.
Over the next few days I noticed more and more improvement. She started to be able to control the lower part of her leg! I felt it and there was resistance. Definitely. The tendons and ligaments of the joint which were busted off or stretched beyond repair were back and holding the joint together!
Another week went by and I took the splint off. The bones were solid. She was limping but able to move her leg–the whole thing, right to the foot–gingerly placing the foot on the ground at this time. Soon she was using it to walk, though with a limp.
Within the space of two months she was walking without a limp. There were no signs of injury whatsoever. She was able to rejoin her mate, and has been laying eggs and living a totally normal life ever since.
It’s easy to say “oh well, it would’ve happened anyway.” At this point, that’s easy to say. If you had been there and had seen the nature of the injuries, you could never say that. The fact that it happened at all, especially in the case of the busted joint, is not physically possible. I actually kill chickens to eat them. I have raised birds for this purpose. I know what is inside that joint that was broken off, how very little holds it together in any case. I’ve cut those structures with a knife, while preparing a bird for eating, and I know that those ligaments cannot be toyed with. If they cannot hold the leg together, if they are ruptured, the bird cannot use the joint.It’s like ropes and pulley systems, holding the two bones together. If they are broken the joint is useless. If they are stretched out, like the elastic in old sweat pants, they don’t go back right. Ever. And if they are deformed, the bird is not going to be able to walk normally, if at all. It’s the same in a human. If you take a joint and break those structures that make it able to bend and move and actually holds the two bones together, that limb is useless.
So far I have seen five healing miracles with my chickens alone. If healing is there for chickens–blind chickens, sick chickens, chickens with head injuries and lame chickens–it is there for anything, and anyone. God’s gifts are not dependent on our goodness. A gift is a gift, it cannot be earned. None of us deserves any of it! But that’s okay, because the Father is generous and has provided everything we might need, through the Son, Jesus Christ.